Sorry to hear about your loss, Justina    We all gotta go some time. We always hope it's later then sooner, no one wants to loose a loved one but she will live on in your memories.
Maybe for the holidays it would help to get out family photo's and go through them, reminiscing about all the good times you've had.

You're right, we'll always have the memories.  My mom has gone through hundreds of photos.  We couldn't even find a pic of her (from within the past 10 years) to put up at the service. They were always with someone. 

At least the memories are plentiful and cheering that's fer sure It's just tuff thinkin that I'll never see her again.  She played such a huge role in my life. 

Thanks again